The first impression I had of you…

When I looked at you, I didn’t really see you.
I just looked at you and I thought, “You’re so smug“.
Only then I realized you were just a scared little boy…
A suffering little boy, afraid to Surrender.
A boy who had lived a lot…
You lived a life you didn’t want for yourself, and yet you were still there, suffering because you didn’t live what you wanted to live.
The funny thing is, you didn’t believe you were worthy of the life you wanted.
Maybe that’s why when I looked at you, I didn’t see you!
At that moment, it would be impossible for my ego to endure…
Today, I know I didn’t see you for protection.
Today, I know I met you to look within.
Yeah, that look would be a mirror to inner self.
As it is today!
In that moment, when I did not allow myself to see you, I protected myself from seeing the girl who is suffering, scared and afraid of being who she is, who I protect within me!
Phew, I made it!
I thought!
Running away from seeing you was just a way to putt off seeing myself!
Postpone interrupted, abruptly, by that hug…
That hug was too much for my ego.
I didn’t have the Strength to go on not seeing!
That hug was the Awakening of that little girl who I hide within me.
Hidden girl of fear of Surrender…
Girl trapped in suffering free of pain…
Little girl scared with the life she doesn’t want…
That hug was of Recognition…
I recognized myself in you!
I recognized in you the Strength to set me Free!
I think you did too!